A year since i first posted.......

 a year ago I decided to write a blog, 

it was after a pretty shit time with my mental health, it was the best way I could share how I was feeling, to share how I chose to not let it beat me, 

i didn't get into running to run away from my issues I chose it to run at them head on,  by pushing myself harder physically than i ever had before i realised that mentally I was a lot stronger than I thought I was,  through all the suffering, all the times i wanted to stop, all of the pain i unwrapped a lot of the old shit that was weighing me down,

I'm in a much better place now than I've ever been, I'm a completely different but 100% better version of myself, I'm part of an awesome running club where I've made loads of new friends something that i wasn't sure on at first as i have always been happiest in my own company but i absolutely love it, for as loud and boisterous as i can be, being around new people or big groups is what i find the hardest not really knowing where i fit in, am i liked, what do people think of me? it takes me way out of my comfort zone but being part of it has been amazing.

This year didn't start so well with me having to pull out of the Arc of Attrition 100 mile ultra marathon, i had a week of being so ill i didn't see any other option at the time, i was in bed for a week with a virus and upper respiratory infection and only recently started feeling 100%. at the time i was gutted but i know it was for the best and seeing one of the club members smashing it for the 2nd year in a row has given me all the inspiration i need for 2024, 

I am in full planning mode for the rest of the year 3 big races I've set my sights on 1 of which gives me an entry into the Arc for next year,

time to up the training intensity increase the miles and pray it all works out,


fight for every step, reach out if you need too and never back down, it might be a fight but its one you can win.

  

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